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My Miscarriage Story

Hi, everyone! I cannot tell you how many times I have started this post….then deleted it. I have been MIA from here since it happened. I wanted to feel what I needed, heal, and just be with my sweet little family. I am ready to share this, especially because it helped me so much to read and relate to other women’s stories.

On the fourth of July, 4 days before I would have announced my pregnancy, I was on the bathroom floor crying in pain. Miscarriage is messy, painful, and heartbreaking.

Let’s go back to the beginning…

In January I had my first miscarriage. It was early on, before I even saw my doctor, but I still had high emotions.

This time was my second miscarriage. I was quite a bit further along, and it broke me. My first appointment went okay. The baby was measuring small, but had a heartbeat, which was relief. They wanted to do another ultrasound at 10 weeks to check on the baby. My husband and I went in nervous, but hopeful. The ultrasound tech started, but when she didn’t say a word to us I knew something was wrong. I didn’t even try to ask questions because I knew she wouldn’t answer me.

When the doctor came in she confirmed our fears. There was no heartbeat, and I was going to miscarry.

She gave me three options:

1: Wait and miscarry naturally

2: Take medicine to speed things along

3: Have a d and c

I opted for option 1. We were heading on vacation the following week. I didn’t want it to happen on vacation, but I also didn’t want to miss out on making memories. I decided to go, and it turned out to be a wonderful time. We decided to come home a day early, which was perfect because everything happened the day after we got home.

It started out with heavy bleeding and mild cramping, but the pain intensified immensely throughout the day. I spent most of the day on the bathroom floor dizzy, bloody, nauseous, and bloody until the pain subsided a bit by dinner. My mom and husband were both there helping me and taking care of the baby. I was beyond thankful for them!

That evening, I showered and had dinner. I had a fever, but the cramps were much lighter, and I felt better.

I had some pain for a few more days, and bleeding quite a bit longer.

My heart grieves for the baby I never got to meet, but I am in a very good place now.

Sending hugs to all the mom’s that have been through a miscarriage. You are not alone.

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Our Weekend (Food, Fitness, Friends, And Family)

Hello, everyone! Another Monday closer to meeting our sweet baby girl. I am so excited! I do have a little cold, so I’m hoping to knock that out quickly.

We had a nice weekend, so here is my recap.

FRIDAY NIGHT:

Once my husband got off of work, he was sweet enough to fix my mom’s breaks. He always fixes our cars! We sat at his shop and I was able to help out a bit. I’ve learned a lot about cars since being with him.

When he finished, we picked up Panera and took it home.

After dinner, my husband played video games and my mom and I watched Shark Tank. We love that show!

SATURDAY:

I woke up and taught my online classes before cleaning the house. I like to do a deep clean once a week!

I did a 20 minute pregnancy cardio workout followed by 10 minutes on the elliptical. It felt good to get a workout in.

Afterwards, I took a shower and nap before my in-laws came over.

My MIL and I went to Sam’s Club and the guys did some work in the nursery!

For dinner, we had stuffed salmon, twice baked potatoes, and salad. YUM!

After dinner, we watched some TV before bed!

SUNDAY:

We started the day with coffee and some relaxing. Once my in-laws left, I showered and got ready for the day.

I met up with some girlfriends for shopping and a late lunch at BJs.

Look at the Easter outfit I got for our little ♡♡♡

For lunch/dinner, we split avacado egg rolls and I had a delicious salad!

Once we finished and said goodbye I went to the grocery store before heading home.

I had some snacks and watched the Superbowl with my husband before bed.

I hope you all had a great weekend and have a great week ahead!

With love,

Carly

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Food, Fitness, Winter Weather, And Baby Month

Hello there, everyone! It is February, which means it is officially baby month!! What a whirlwind this journey has been. I can’t believe we get to meet our little one SO soon!

Apparently my cat thinks the nursery is just for her hahaha!

We had another dr. appointment today, and I am 1 cm dialated (same as last week), so she still has a little more brewing to do!

CHALLENGES THIS WEEK:

*Cramping

*Pressure….so. much. pressure.

*Nausea

*Trying to stay comfortable

*Thirsty all the time

THIS WEEK IN FOOD:

Our meals have been quite tasty this week!

Turkey burger and a salad kit

Pasta and meat sauce

Yesterday, I had lunch with my mom at Zoup…yum!

Crack chicken in the crockpot! Delicious!!

How cute is my cappuccino from Fox in the Snow Cafe?!

I have had Wednesday through today off of work due to extreme cold and snow. It has been so nice!! Our cars have been a mess from the weather, so I have been stuck inside quite a bit.

Anyone else been hit with this weather? Bring on the warm weather, please!!!

FITNESS THIS WEEK:

*Bump at the barre

*Elliptical

*Exercise bike

I’m thankful I have these options at home, but I sure do miss the gym. Keeping baby safe is #1 though!

Since my husband needed my car today I am stuck inside again…oh well, at least I have Starbucks and my fireplace!

Have a great weekend, everyone!

With love,

Carly

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Weekend Wrap-Up (Food, Fitness And Friends)

Hi, all! Another weekend flew by, which means another weekend closer to meeting our girl! I will be 37 weeks on Thursday and I’m feeling every bit of it.

This weekend was a nice mixture of relaxing and getting things done around the house. Here is my recap…

FRIDAY NIGHT:

My husband picked up Chipotle for us on his way home from work. We ate and wached Netflix, which was so relaxing.

SATURDAY:

The day started with coffee and online teaching! I did a barre workout before starting on my to-do list. I got a lot done!

Later, my husband went out to grab us carry out from Roosters while I stayed home and took a long shower.

We ate and watched Breaking Bad until we went to bed.

SUNDAY:

My husband and I picked up Starbucks first thing and brought it home to enjoy in front of the fireplace.

I did yoga, went to the grocery store, and folded laundry.

My husband set up some things for baby girl! We are so ready for her!!!

We went out to dinner at a place called Local Cantina with some friends. I enjoyed the chicken fajitas!

We had fun catching up spending time with friends!

When we got home we watched a little TV before bed.

Now time to prepare for the freezing cold weather expected this week!

Have a good one!

With love,

Carly